Grow Thicker Skin

I stumbled upon a post on IG about wanting only 1 kid today. And the real punch is when the caption said, "I don't know why I have to justified my reasons to a stranger." That is something that I feel very often, but I guess I've never really comprehend. I just now that it didn't feel right every time I have conversation about not wanting another kid, I feel obliged to give valid reason why I don't want it for now. I don't have to. I don't have to tell them my reasons. It's my life, my body, my decision.

Try to be Content

Can you you believe it's March already? Yet I still haven't got any salary, cheers to bureaucracy. But frankly, I'm not surpsrised. The previous almost same process took around 6 month to finished, so I kinda estimate it will be the same. Eventhogh I still hope it will be faster this time since it affects my other affairs. 

Enjoy Your Day

The wet season is really delivered. I haven't seen sun light since a couple of days till this morning. But it also went quickly, covered by the cloud, again. The view from my office window is the same with yesterday, and the day before yesterday, and the day before: cloudy with fat chance of rain. It's dark and it's cold. Such a perfect day to stay indoor with headphone on your ears. My husband called my headphone 'your anti social device' which is true, eventhough it's not really needed considering there's only 5 people top in this huge room. 

About Child

Hello, long time no update. I plan to do some things today but I'm defeated by the flu. So I just slumped in my chair. Na got the flu first, after days of clogged nose. We went to doctor twice, different doctor. And it seems like her clogged nose was caused by an allergy, eventhough we're still not sure what triggers it. Today she has been back to the daycare, with tears. She refused to come out from the car, and cried when I left her there. 

Mixed of Everything

Felt like crap this morning. Which is my own fault staying up a bit late last night. So I get my morning coffee at not even 8.30 yet. Why is coffee so good? I actually don't think I have a good palate. Same for coffee, I can't really taste which one is the better quality. But I do, have preference. My favorite is long black, with a little sugar. But I don't like coffee that has acidic taste in it. My mother once told me what kind of coffe that is, but I forgot. Ha ha. I just need to remember what brand that I like the most. Lately, my favorit is Robert Tim's Italian Espresso, which I bought tons of it in Melbourne. Sadly, that can't be found here. So I'm gonna need replacement once my stash runs out.

Letter for you #1

Having a daughter in this patriacal community is such a challenge. There is so many things I want to tell her, to prepare her, for how this world will treat her. Let's start with the basic. As a women, you should be independent. Never ever ever depend on a man for your happiness. You don't need a man to be happy. You don't need anyone else to make your life complete. You are your own pupil and you are perfect already.

Make Up Routine

Good morning! I skipped writing for 2 days and the reason is I'm too exhausted to write. I've been doing my delayed work and boy it takes time. It still hasn't finished yet. So I'm gonna do update real quick in this morning before I'm back to that exhausting and energy draining task.