Mixed of Everything

Felt like crap this morning. Which is my own fault staying up a bit late last night. So I get my morning coffee at not even 8.30 yet. Why is coffee so good? I actually don't think I have a good palate. Same for coffee, I can't really taste which one is the better quality. But I do, have preference. My favorite is long black, with a little sugar. But I don't like coffee that has acidic taste in it. My mother once told me what kind of coffe that is, but I forgot. Ha ha. I just need to remember what brand that I like the most. Lately, my favorit is Robert Tim's Italian Espresso, which I bought tons of it in Melbourne. Sadly, that can't be found here. So I'm gonna need replacement once my stash runs out.

Letter for you #1

Having a daughter in this patriacal community is such a challenge. There is so many things I want to tell her, to prepare her, for how this world will treat her. Let's start with the basic. As a women, you should be independent. Never ever ever depend on a man for your happiness. You don't need a man to be happy. You don't need anyone else to make your life complete. You are your own pupil and you are perfect already.

Make Up Routine

Good morning! I skipped writing for 2 days and the reason is I'm too exhausted to write. I've been doing my delayed work and boy it takes time. It still hasn't finished yet. So I'm gonna do update real quick in this morning before I'm back to that exhausting and energy draining task. 

Some By Mi

Yeay, I finally got my new work laptop. It's not practically new (the screen is cracked, and it's a bit slow), but it's new to me. It's smaller than my old work laptop so I guess it will be easier to brought around. Eventhough I'm moved to another team, I still sit at my old team room because there's only a few people here and the room is vast. You can literally has a row for yourself. This is not a problem for now, and I hope it won't be for next time.

Awaysick.

Hello there. I'm trying to keep my promise, so I'm back. After being away from work for a year, a lot has changed. A lot. I'm still working in the same office building, but the people is almost entirely new. My old team is breaking apart. Some of them moved to new places, some of them stay. I thought I was one of the left behind, but it turned out I was being moved too. Still at the same office though, just with different team and consequently different job. In a way, it's an opportunity. To learn new things, to escape from fatigue and boredom. But, it's also a challenge. To test my ability. 

Enough about work. Now, it's been 2 weeks since I'm back in this country. Honestly, I don't miss this place. Just some of the people, like my family and friends, and my job (my ability to generate my own income, frankly). I already miss the evening I spent strolling around to restaurant, or park. A simple thing that's impossible to do here. 

My first reaction when D told me that he got accepted to study abroad was I was glad. Glad for him, and for me too. To be able to escape for a while from the routine that's starting to wear me out. Once I read that one of the reason we like to venture to a new place is the anonymity. It is true, I think. There, I was just another face. No one really knows who I am. So they don't have any expectation from me. And I never really comprehend this before, but being free from other's expectation can really be liberating. It drives me to be good, for the sake of myself. 

One thing that I really love about people there is they mind their own business, but they are ready to help others in need. You can dress all you want, speak all you like, as long as you don't disturb other, you are good. Even moslem is minority there, I was lucky I never got any bad experience about being a moslem (other sister there has different story). In fact, I was mostly treated very well. Fellow moslem said salam when we meet, people ready to help with pram, they smile to my daughter and me. That's definitely things I miss.

Now being back here, facade is needed. To be included, to look as though I'm belong. 

Greeting

Hello world. So, it turns out I've been leaving this blog for quite some time. What has happened? A lot and nothing, maybe. The one big event happened in 2019 was actually my husband's, not mine. He got a chance to study abroad, which he took starting in 2018. Then our daughter and me follow him abroad starting from last year. We lived together in Melbourne for almost a year. And that's the main event for last year.